Irritable Annoyance
Well, there's not much to say lately. If I'm in school, I either talk to Bluma or make fun or fight with the other girls. At home, I either type, watch, or read myself to two o'clock in the morning. Chanuka has only been a consolation because of memories of past times when it really was great. There really was nothing in it this year.
I'm starting to rebel more and more. It's not like anyone can actually say anything, though, because half the time it's private and half the time I'm just keeping in line with what lesser people around me do. I really am becoming a snobbish pig.
So what's Christmica been like by all of you? Haven't really heard from anyone but Ayelet - thanks for calling, by the way! - and Tsiona, who wasn't very responsive at the time of the call. So, hope you're all doing okay, reading good books, doing great things, seeing neat sights - GIVE ME SOMETHING TO WRITE!
posted by Lela Harbinger at 2:50 PM
3 Comments:
Liege. what is this nonsense about the day of dawning experience? You are what you are (faust, exodus...). If you live in anticipation of something greater lying beyond, you shall either be disappointed or never actually live. You don't need to reach some fictious objective standard in order to engage with me. And contrary to what you may think i already learn a great deal from you. keep rebelling!
thanx, bro. it doesn't make me feel any more able to understand what u guys talk about.
Why would you consider yourself a snobbish pig?
Aliza, you are trying to exercise your uniqueness in a home and school where it's not acceptable unless you fit that mold. Your creativity and uniqueness are being suffocated and the result is what you call rebelling and being a snobbish pig. It's hard to separate yourself from the suffocation and just be yourself but try! Be you! Be our daydreamer, our Liege. Don't let these things squash you into the way they want you to be. When I see you next, I don't want to see a subservient Aliza, who bows to what other people want of her. You must understand though, being yourself with probably reak havoc and chaos and a lot of other unpleasant things, but DON'T LET THAT STOP YOU! Unfortunately that comes with the territory of the environment you live in.
In school, if you feel like your individuality is being suffocated, you get angry at a teacher, write down, yes, in the middle of class, what you would say, or do to the person or teacher who is crushing you. Acting on it will just make you into the rebel you don't want to be. Don't let yourself become a rebel, but rather, become YOU. And remember that I love you so much no matter how much trouble you get into being yourself, no matter what!
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