Living

I hate feeling like I have a relationship with someone out of convenience; I hate it when I get like this, sleep-derived, menstrating, obsessive compulsive, like dirt because I'm not frum and accepting, and most of all unloved. Most of the time I can handle it, feel like it's okay if I don't have any true confidantes everywhere I go, but now I'm just feeling depressed ..... If this is too boring for you, Lola, I'm sorry, but I thought you guys wanted to know what's happening in my life. This about sums up 25% of it. The rest of it is me getting hyper, bouncing off the ceilings, singing opera in the halls and coming home to procrastinate doing my homework. I should be starting dance classes after Succos. I had a shock of inspiration for about three days around a week ago, but it wore off. That was truly heaven.