Moving Along
Been feeling really shitty today ... maybe I just need some sleep. Have intense feeling of helplessness whenever hang around certain people. Oh yeah - maybe it's because I was cursed out.
Well, the b-day party went okay, I guess. Now I just have to get over the latest realization that I'm not really all that respected or treated like a real human being (aside from a select few). Gotta do something about that ...
posted by Lela Harbinger at 12:47 AM
7 Comments:
Hell, I feel that when i'm alone! Aliza, for you to be respected and treated like a human being by certain relatives, you need to do what THEY want you to do, what they have planned for you, and for you to develope the way they want you to, and you know better than anyone that that's not who you are. And if you won't get the right treatment because of that, then screw them. Look what I'm going to study. When they find out it's serious, not just a joke, what do you think their reaction will be? There's nothing you can do, other than accept yourself and be happy with who you made yourself to be. That's what the people who care about you most want to see anyway.
cursed out? by whom?
and guys, you know it's one thing to preach from beyond the house, and another when you're living with ema who is worshipping the ground they walk on... much more difficult then not to fall prey to their psychic despotism. I have one word for you liege: fuck 'em! (eyes looking around suspiciously)
that's two words, es
hey, thanks u guys. but it isn't only them, and it isn't all of them, either. i have to start being more assertive.
my friend got really mad at me because I was trying to stop her from doing something stupid.
My friend got mad at me because I was helping her out in the miyun after the accident. Later she told me she wasn't feel well and she was tired. People often get mad at those who try to help them because they are temporarily blind to what they need.
bird- who is karl?
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