Living

I hate feeling like I have a relationship with someone out of convenience; I hate it when I get like this, sleep-derived, menstrating, obsessive compulsive, like dirt because I'm not frum and accepting, and most of all unloved. Most of the time I can handle it, feel like it's okay if I don't have any true confidantes everywhere I go, but now I'm just feeling depressed ..... If this is too boring for you, Lola, I'm sorry, but I thought you guys wanted to know what's happening in my life. This about sums up 25% of it. The rest of it is me getting hyper, bouncing off the ceilings, singing opera in the halls and coming home to procrastinate doing my homework. I should be starting dance classes after Succos. I had a shock of inspiration for about three days around a week ago, but it wore off. That was truly heaven.

Compliments Etc. ...

I feel like I'm glowing!! We were reading 12 Angry Men in English (that Jelly typed up for the teacher), and I was supposed to be the guy from the slums, No. 5. But then when the teacher got to No. 11, the foreigner, everyone was saying how I should be it, and I never really said I wanted to but the next day dawned and I was No. 11. So I was sitting there yesterday, all upset because I didn't remember having such good lines. Then today we kept going and we got to the part where No. 11 is yelling at No. 7 for changing his mind so quickly just to get out sooner, and after I went through the tyrade (in a French accent, of course), the teacher suddenly said that I was really good, and that the guy in the movie version did it almost exactly like that! I love getting compliments on my acting, it's one of the things I pride myself on, and I just feel so damn good!

Tension

It's tangible. I have to fill in nearly an entire day of school. I could bemoan the rest of my life, but I see no point.
Could you all give me an indication that you exist? I'm not sensing any vibes.

And All the Shit Comes Out

Gotta love those family reunions. Good thing they only last one day, eh? Luv u ppl ...