Broken Atlas

i feel so alone ... where is everybody? i wish i could rewind time, to a point where we were all together. i know that everyone else was going through what i'm going through now then, but i was happy. now i'm the home base. i'm the one holding it all together. i wish i could stay the same, be the same person you saw last time you were home, but i can't. i have to change. i have to grow. i hate the person i am now, and what i'm living. i'll try to tell all of you when things change, but life can't always be put down into words. i'm so sorry ...